When the Storms Rage On

June 16, 2014 | 26 comments

All around us, the storms rage on.

Basements are filling, and strength is emptying. Fields are flooding, and the sky keeps flashing. Indoors, lights are flickering.

A whole town is in shambles in Pilger, Nebraska, somewhere out west of us.

Levees aren’t holding, and people are barely holding on.

Outside, the rain is tapping against my windows, as I tap on these keys.

I remember, again, what an old pastor once told me:

Sometimes, the only way out of any storm is to go through it.

It was back in 2000. A Friday morning.

My newspaper editor called.

“Jennifer. How quickly can you get to northeast Iowa? More than a dozen twisters went through.”

I fumbled for my glasses. Slipped on blue jeans and tennis shoes. I kissed my husband goodbye, and grabbed the faux-leather briefcase that always sat by the back door.

In less than two hours, I was in Dunkerton, Iowa. The town had been turned inside out by a tornado. The morning sun cast an eerie, happy glow over the sad and twisted innards of people’s lives.

I remember with startling clarity how a John Deere tractor, caked with mud, sat atop a barn, rather than inside it. I stood on a woman’s concrete front steps that led to nowhere but sky. I saw a little girl’s Sunday dress draped in a tree. There was this one multi-colored afghan. I imagined that it might have been draped, for years, over the back of someone’s wooden rocker. And now, it flopped over an uprooted mailbox.

I helped some guy pick up photographs and manila folders strewn in his yard. It was a small thing, this picking-up-of-things. But he didn’t know what else to do. Neither did I.

Iowa Governor Tom Vilsack wore a leather National Guard jacket that morning, and he muttered a greeting to the mayor: “Here we go again.” I wrote the words down in my spiral-bound notebook.

Yeah. Here we go again. 

One year earlier, the governor had walked these same streets. He had declared the area a disaster when a flood pummeled the region. Another year; another storm. He was back again, stuffing his hands deep into his pockets the morning after a twister left a town in tatters.

So unrelenting, these storms.

They don’t play fair. And it’s hard to believe that any storm cloud could have a silver lining.

As a Christian, I might be tempted to tie a neat theological bow around the whole mess. Like I could single-handedly stick up for God or make excuses for why bad things happen on earth. I’ve never been very good at that sort of thing. It feels like putting a fresh coat of red paint on that leveled barn. Like putting lipstick on a pig. Because you can’t make storms look pretty, no matter how hard you try.

So we just sit in the rubble a while, right down in the mess.

And we don’t know what else to do but sit and weep with our friends all across this storm-torn region. The only theology I can come up with is the shortest verse in the New Testament —

“Jesus wept.”

Sometimes you don’t know how long you’re going to have to wait to find the good in a storm. Maybe we have to wait all the way until heaven.

I walked through a tornado’s rubble that Friday in May of 2000, wondering about those sorts of things. Wondering if any good could ever come…

That morning, a guy told me about a 120-year-old country church that had been torn to shreds. So, I drove my Toyota down some rubble-strewn road, until I found the church between fresh-planted farmfields.

The glass doors of the church were, remarkably, still intact. They weren’t shattered. Just scratched. That’s important to the story I’m about to tell you, so I put it in big letters here. 

Inside the doors, I found the pastor. His black pants and minister’s collar were covered in dirt.

He introduced himself as Pastor Dean. I asked a few questions, wrote down his answers. Two men stood up by the altar, one of them wiping tears with the back of his hand. Women, who had overseen potlucks and bridal showers, carried out kitchen utensils and coffee cups. A few guys walked by us, carrying the pulpit.

I remember how the pastor told me he didn’t know what he was going to preach on Sunday; 200 people would look to him for spiritual guidance. He didn’t even know where they’d worship.

“I served in Vietnam for two years,” the pastor told me. “And since then, I don’t think I’ve ever felt such a complete loss of control as I do right now.”

But, he promised, “we’ll be back up and running again.”

I thanked the pastor, and clutching my reporter’s notebook, walked out the door, never to see the church again.

All these years later, I never knew if his words about rebuilding that church were the product of wishful thinking or stubborn faith.

* * *

Fourteen years later, storms rage across the Midwest. Someone is trying to pick up the pieces in Pilger, Nebraska. Someone else doesn’t know where the pieces even are.  How do you rebuild after something like that? 

Can we hold out hope for real rainbows after storms like these?


Last year, I went looking for that pastor from Dunkerton. I Googled, looking for that church that the pastor promised would be rebuilt. Googled, like I might find some sliver of a silver lining. Please, Lord? I searched online. Made some calls. Googled more. But … Nothing.

My heart sunk into my gut.

So, I called another pastor in another town at a Baptist church. “Oh ye-eees. I do believe I’ve got the number ’round here somewhere…”

I held my breathe. Jotted down the number. Dialed fast.

Within minutes, I was talking with Pastor Bill of the St. John’s Lutheran Church of rural Dunkerton. Pastor Dean, the one with the dirt-covered collar, had long since moved on.

But here’s what Pastor Bill said: the church made good on the old pastor’s promise. 

That church had rebuilt after all.

My heart quickened. It was like an affirmation that a storm can’t destroy everything. Like it can’t destroy hope.

Like a twister can’t wreck God. 

The pastor said it hadn’t been an easy road.  In 2008, a second tornado hit that church, causing $65,000 damage.

If Pastor Bill were asked to fill a pulpit in a storm-ravaged town this Sunday, he’d give folks the message he once heard from a therapist who spoke about the difficulty of divorce —

“The only way out is through.” 

As for the rest of us, the ones out here groping for answers? Well, he said that sometimes, it’s best to say nothing at all.

“Just be there. Help people. Hold them,” Pastor Bill told me. “Tell them that their pain is your pain too. We weep with those who weep. And rejoice with those who rejoice.”

I wrote down his words fast, then thanked Pastor Bill for his time. But before I hung up, I asked him what they were able to salvage from that old church I stood in thirteen years ago.

And get this : The doors. They still have the glass doors. They stand at the entrance to the nave.

Those glass doors, scratched and marred as they are, are a poignant reminder to everyone who goes in, or who goes out. They remind everyone that the good pastor is right : the only way out is through.

And Christ is the door.



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by | June 16, 2014 | 26 comments


  1. Beth Hess

    The storms, sometimes, are so very dark. And little, indeed, is left standing. I’m so grateful for this stirring and beautiful reminder that there is always a way to rebuild. Even if it gets knocked down again. New mercies. New dawn. A good God. Each and every day. After each and every storm. So much tenderness and hope in this post, even as it floods the page with stories of suffering. For all of us who are in the “going through it” part of the storm, your words are a soothing balm. Thank you.

    • dukeslee

      Sometimes they are outside storms. And sometimes? Interior storms of the soul. In either case, Christ is the door.

      Grateful for your words in the comment box, Beth.

  2. Carol Longenecker Hiestand

    I am glad you followed up. yes, sometimes we have to wait till heaven, I believe to find answers, SEE the good. but sometimes we see it and it’s a grace. thanks for this tonight. We used to live in Fremont Nebraska, not too far from Pilger.

    • dukeslee

      Yeah, that’s close, Carol. Did you see the footage of the Pilger twin tornadoes? Horrifying and devastating.

  3. Sandra Heska King

    I remember this story. Loved it then. Loved it now. Stay safe.

    • dukeslee

      Yeah. Seemed timely to unearth it. Really struggling here in Lyon County, and while it’s not nearly as bad as Pilger, we’re in a mess. Whole towns and neighborhoods have been evacuated all around us. We are safe here. Mom-in-law’s basement is 1/3 full of water. 🙁

      • Sandra Heska King

        1/3 full is a lot. I saw those twin tornadoes. So scary. Praying for all of you and those around you. xo

  4. Traci @tracesoffaith

    I read this with anticipation. I knew it would be a beautiful tale weaving the past into a better future. Thank you for reminding us how to step into grief with another. God has laid this topic on my heart to write about too.

    • dukeslee

      So grateful to have you here, Traci.

  5. Terry Felix

    Beautifully written. Seven long months ago today our home was destroyed and life as we knew it blown away. God has been truly good every single step of the journey. We are still fighting daily with insurance to pay us what we were covered for so we can finally start excavation and rebuilding. My heart aches for the people who are freshly mourning today and beginning this long, very difficult journey. Thanks for your words of hope. They mean a lot to my heart today too.

    • dukeslee

      Oh Terry … I am so sorry. Where do you live? And where DID you live? Praying for you as you rebuild. What a journey….

      • Terry Felix

        We live in Washington, Il. Over 600 homes in our little town completely destroyed on that Sunday morning last November. God was so good. The town’s churches were full (it’s where we were). Three large churches were in the direct path of the storm and none were damaged so many, many lives were spared. We are living in a little apartment for the time being, waiting and praying for insurance to settle so we can begin. I was really struggling this last weekend with another anniversary date coming up with no progress. Somehow it doesn’t matter as much when others have so newly lost all. I haven’t been faithful at keeping up my blog but there is a little of our story here http://justcallmegrammy.blogspot.com/ if you are interested.
        I don’t comment but love following your blog. Your writing has been a great encouragement to me on some hard days. Thanks for being faithful to what God has called you to…it makes a difference.

  6. Megan Willome

    Needed this this morning, Jennifer. Thank you.

    • dukeslee

      You are welcome. Sending love.

  7. Charity Singleton Craig

    Beautiful, Jennifer. I wrote about rainbows today, too. Different than this, but still rainbows. They say so much about the God who carries us through storms.

    • dukeslee

      We need more rainbows today. Glad you brought your to the Internet, friend. xo

  8. jenniferfrisbie

    Beautiful story, Jennifer. I always think you can’t outdo yourself…and then I’m always wrong. So grateful for your gift of revealing God’s face…

    • dukeslee

      Grateful for you, Jennifer.

  9. Birdie Cutair

    Thank you for sharing this story with us. I especially like the part about the glass doors. There’s always a bit of hope if we look for it.

    • dukeslee

      Yeah. Those doors just floored me. And the fact that they still bear the scars of the storm.

  10. Trudy Den Hoed

    Such sadness and devastation, but what a comfort to know there IS a way through it all. Thank you, Jennifer, for encouraging me today.

    • dukeslee

      Grateful for your voice here in the comments, Trudy.

  11. Caryn Jenkins Christensen

    Oh my. The glass doors. It gave me chills to read that. It can feel just as helpless on this end of things to know what to do or say, so I appreciated Pastor Bill’s words of wisdom. ““Just be there. Help people. Hold them. Tell them that their pain is your pain too. We weep with those who weep. And rejoice with those who rejoice.”

  12. Lynn Mosher

    Oh, Jennifer, my heart always sinks into that nebulous pit of sadness, sorrow, and sympathy for those who suffer the devastation of being pummeled and tossed about by a funnel cloud. Your story is heartbreaking, yet swaddled in hope. Always breathtaking!

  13. Heather @ My Overflowing Cup

    This is just beautiful! Sometimes the simple things say it best, right? Like “Jesus wept.” Sometimes just remembering that truth is enough. Often we do just need to ride through the storms of life without always having a theological answer, but that’s okay because we have the hope of Christ. Thank you for sharing your thoughts!

  14. pastordt

    Wonderful story, Jen. And, as usual, told so very well. Thank you. This is a lesson I’m learning this week – the only way out is through. Exactly.


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